Future Gazing

Guest tutor Zuzanna Walas joins us. The subject area is interesting but familiar. I’ve done a fair few business courses over the years that have included marketing. This is more comprehensive though and I am relating it to my own business. I realise it’s time to give my website a makeover and make it congruent. The thoughts of where I will be going next after this MA are running through my head. Celebrancy has become an important consideration and I can really see the link with the arts. The work is detailed and we split in to groups, I realise that I am exhausted after the intensity of the funeral and apartment clearing. I feel lost and separate and at the same time I am interested so I push and eventually push too hard. By the time I get home on my knees I am questioning whether the MA is still for me, whether I have anything to offer now, whether at best can I defer for a year.

Then that night I dream and I am shown a theatre inside a beehive. It looks like a punch and Judy show but it is a beehive with supers on the top. At 3am I am drawing the vision and thinking about the plays the theatre will have on the bill. I am thinking about the technicalities of puppet size (thinking dolly pegs with sticks). I am thinking announcements of births, deaths and marriages. I am thinking about drama and drama triangles. I am scribbling until dawn. Like most of my night time ideas I feel they are genius at the time but sharing with a few trusted folk, it seems like an interesting idea. Part of me is grieving for the concepts of gut biome and UPF’s but I don’t feel like there is enough joy in them for me now. You see I am feeling pretty free. A little bit of inheritance offers resources to open a few doors. I am no longer anyone’s next of kin, the first person to contact in an emergency. I just have myself to look after and life looks and feels quite different. Who is Jennifer Medlicott? That is the question.